Today again m thinking too much....I am really not able to figure out...It hurts when the one whom you love most in the life...gets angry on you...somone you love badly...someone for whom you have disconnected yourself from your "family"....specifically cos they are not in much of a favour....
"Family" - After fighting consistently with my loved one, I suddenly shook myself today....Who are those people......who am I making suffer because of my indifferent behaviour....who m I shouting upon.......with whom m I fighting with......."My Family"...these are the people who are concern for me, more than anyone in this entire world...they are just mine and I AM???? doing what ..........I AM HURTING MY OWN FAMILY......what's their fault????? why m i doing this....I've no answer to this question.......but I also do love her...but does my love for her provides me the license to hurt my family???? This is the question now I do have in my mind. And i really need the answer for it..cos otherwise I'll become impatient...or insomanic.....
Yesteday only my Dad asked me Gagan u are restricting yourself to you only, why are you doing this?? You don't even talk to us these days...I was blown off ....I had no answer to them.....till tomorrow.
But today I think I am moving towards a decision. Which I feel will be best for us.
